i’ve made up my mind.  this is the path i will be on the for the next 12 months.  it seems like forever, but really, it’s just one trip around the sun.  school is expensive, time-consuming and difficult.  and the difficulty will grow every day.  i am scared.  this is completely unchartered territory for me.  i have to depend on other people for the next 12 months.  that is not easy for me.  but i believe in me.  i believe that i am on the right track.  everyone, from my husband to my friends to my doctor, have remarked that they haven’t seen me this happy or “pumped up” in a long time.  but the tunnel is dark.  my flashlight is unreliable.  i hear rats.  my stomach is in knots.  but i love it.  i feel alive. 

and then.  the proverbial phone rang.  what is our heroine going to do?  stay the course?  be remarkable?  change the world?  or take the corporate gig and go back to living large and dealing with idiots?

she’s going to believe in herself, people.  even though it’s hard right now.